Tuesday, May 11, 2004

At the blink of an eye.

Have you ever realized how things in your life can change in just the blink of your eye? That's what's happened to me in about 2 weeks.

Husband lost his job and got a new one in about 1 1/2 weeks. Daughter came down with a UTI. Son started new "habits" that wasn't expected.

My life has really "flipped" around in about 2 weeks. Instead of hubby being home to help with the kids and chores at night, he's gone at work. He gets home anywhere from 8:30pm - 10pm. Think he's going to do chores than? Hell no. He can't even help or do anything during the morning when he's home. But yet he tells me that he's still doing "everything" around the house. Last night was a prime example. I worked a double last night. Came home, vaccumed, did laundry, put clothes away, cleaned up the garbage everyone left laying around, etc.... He comes home and doesn't even mention the house looks good. Just throws his crap all over the house, eats and goes to bed. Then he won't even help on the weekends when he's home. I don't mind him coming home so late because it gives me time with the kids and gets me my own routine so it's a lot less crazy. But it would still be nice to have him around to help with the chores so I'm not doing everything.

Plus, I've been battling a big issue in our house. Between a friend and I, we both have feelings that our kids (my 2 and her 1) are being sexuall abused by an outside babysitter. The thing is, we can't go off accuseing because it's a 16yr old girl that is really screwed up in the head. How do you handle such a situtation? I already won't allow her in my house anymore or watch my kids. I don't need that kind of crap happening in my house. I will do anything I have to, to prevent it from happening. I spent 5 hours between 2 hospitals trying to determine if my youngest was abused or not. Children's hospital can be such pricks. The doctor came in trying to accuse myself and my friend of doing it to her. Then he told us her cultures came back negative (urine and yeast). Then the hospital called on Saturday and told us she did have a urinary tract infection and to come get meds to help her get better. I'm a little relieved, but I still haveing the feeling in the back of my mind that this may still be happening to my children.

Other than that, things are starting to mellow out. I dropped Mary Kay (at a friends demand/request J/K ;) ) and joined Partylite instead. I think I will do much better at it since I enjoy candles more than makeup. I'm just starting to get this feeling that dropping Mary Kay has affected my friendship with this girl though. Things seem to be real tense right now between us. Maybe I'm just being paranoid. Who knows?

As things start to work out (again), maybe things will be less crazy.