Sunday, May 01, 2005

KIDS....

Why is it that kids think it's fun to just laugh at you when you tell them to stop something and just keep doing it? I mean, if you're throwing a pillow and you're about to break something wouldn't it be common sense to stop if you're told to? I mean really.

I guess the whole bases behind this is that I'm in the process of getting a divorce and the husband is being an ass. He gets the kids every other weekend and every time they come back, they're even worse behaved. It's like I have to go through the process of trying to deprogram them just to try and survive the next two weeks with sanity. They totally miss behave. They don't listen to me anymore. When we were still together, they always listened to me and totally ignored him. Now they think it's fun to ignore me and do whatever they please. They pretty much to run around the house creating havoic. I've always had control over my kids. Now I feel like I have no control over anything anymore. I don't know from one week to the next if I'm going to have any money for anything. I feel like I'm just being pulled to the limits and I don't know how much more I can handle. It's almost getting to the point that I wish he would've at least fought for the kids just so I didn't have to deal with them anymore. Getting through everyday is just a huge battle that I don't know if I have any more energy for. Punishing them doesn't help. I get laughed at and totally ignored. I HATE THAT!!! Especially when it's from my kids. I feel like I can't go through with this. I just want my children to respect me and listen when they're told something. I don't want to go through the rest of my life like this. It's too hard and it's taking up a lot of energy I don't think I have anymore.