Crazy and Confused . . .

The bitterest tears shed over graves are for words left unsaid and deeds left undone.

Harriet Beecher Stowe, 1865

It is hard to be so strong when someone special leaves your life and it doesn't get any easier with practice.

Javan

posted by Me @ 10:32 PM Comments: 0

On or Off...On or Off...

My top 10 turn ons & turn offs (nonsexual)

Turn ons:
1. Dolphins/Cats/Dogs
2. Friends that stay with you through thick and thin
3. Being extremely lazy
4. Romance
5. Humor
6. Passoniate kisses that make you lite headed
7. Seafood
8. Wildflowers
9. Surprises
10. Compliments that are honest

Turn offs:
1. Heights
2. Bees
3. Being ignored
4. People that think they are better than everyone else
5. Neglegence
6. Hospitals
7. Disorganization
8. Animal cruelty
9. Back stabbing
10. Thunderstorms late at night

posted by Me @ 8:28 PM Comments: 0

Things aren't too bad lately. I got a letter in the mail today stating that my divorce hearing is on August 31st @ 11:30am and if we are in agreement, this will be our final hearing and my divorce will be final. HALLELUJAH!!! I'm so glad this is almost over!! I'm almost there. I've gotten through it. Just a little more to go!! As the little engine that could said "I think I can! I think I can! I think I can!"

On the plus side, I'm down to 4 kittens. My calico one went home on Sunday and one of the orange tabbys went home on Friday. I've got two more going home on the 8th with possibly a third one going with them. And that only leaves me with 1 more kitten who may have a home, but it's not definite yet.

My oldest turned 5 yesterday. I can't believe that 5 years have gone past since I brought him into this world. Lately I've been thinking a little on the negative side. I've been wishing that I wouldn't have had kids with "him". Then things wouldn't be so messed up right now. I know deep down though that if I wouldn't have gotten pregnant, I don't think him and I would've ever gotten married. I just don't see it playing out that way. But what's done is done, and I can't change the past. The only thing I can do is work toward the future and pray that I make it the type of future I want for me and my kids now that he's gone. And that's all the matters from now on!!

posted by Me @ 8:43 PM Comments: 1