Your 2005 Song Is
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Since You've Been Gone by Kelly Clarkson
"But since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
I'm so moving on"
In 2005, you moved on.
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If this just doesn't hit it head on!!!
Long time no update
Solost just made me aware that I haven't updated in about a month. Oopps. I didn't realize it had been that long. I guess time flies when you're not really paying attention.
Not a whole lot going on here. Trying to get ready for the holidays, but things are much more different this year with HIM gone. My first Thanksgiving without him and I didn't even have my kids. That sucked, but thankfully I had some really great friends to spend the day with, so I wasn't totally alone.
I think Christmas is going to be even harder since I'm so used to having them around for everything. I at least get them on Christmas Eve and he just gets them early Christmas Day. I'm still having a really hard time getting into the Christmas spirit though. Normally, by now, my entire house would be decorated from top to bottom with lights and everything. I haven't done any of that and I honestly don't have any ambition too. I'm also to the point that I don't think I even want a tree up. It's too much of a hassle and the kids aren't really around to enjoy it with me. I guess I'm seeing at as a waste of time this year and I'm dreading doing it. I didn't even enjoy decorating work this year. Normally I go all out there too. This year I just hurried up and got it done so that there was at least something out. And I'll just get to take it all back down in about 3 weeks.
G started her 2nd week of school. It's more like 3yr old preschool, but she likes it. I have such a hard time leaving her there though. She always cries uncontrollably and I hate walking away from her when she's like that. Especially since the girls been through so much already in the last 8-9 months. Most mornings I end up crying myself because I have to leave her like that and it just hurts me like you wouldn't believe. I keep telling myself it'll get easier as each day goes by, but when she's with dad, he refuses to take her to school, so she gets a week off and it starts right back up when I get her that following week. I just wish there was some way to knock some brains into jackoffs head to get him to realize that this program is the best thing for her. I'm hoping that on January 18th everything will be finalized and it will be court ordered or something and he'll HAVE to take her.
I guess I'll just have to wait and see what happens as time ticks on and days go by.
