What Does Your Birth Month Mean??
| Your Birth Month is March |
 You love life and exude an outgoing, cheerful vibe.
Blessed with a great sense of humor, you can laugh at adversity.
Your soul reflects: Respect, desire, and generosity
Your gemstone: Aquamarine
Your flower: Daffodil
Your colors: White and light blue |
Tomorrow...So tomorrow is the day. My birthday. I'm not too excited about it though. The boyfriend has been bugging me about every detail. What do I want as a gift? What do I want for a cake? What do I want to do? I don't feel I should be the one "planning" my birthday. I feel that should be done by the one's that care about me. I'm not really expecting anything anyways. It's been one year since he's been gone and I've learned not too expect anything. All the bugging about what I want has really thrown me off. I've never had anyone ever ask me what I wanted. I've always just taken what I was given. I've been with him and he still is having trouble with what to get me. He did such a great job at Christmas and Valentine's Day. I'm having a hard time believing that he can't think of anything. Maybe I'm just thinking too much into it. I know that he wants to make it special because my birthday's have always sucked, but why make it harder than it has to be? Why can't he just come up with something on his own that he thinks I would enjoy? I'm not that picky. I'm happy with anything as long as there was some thought put into it. Not just some kitchen magnet that was bought at the last minute (that was my birthday gift from my ex last year - with a card). I guess I just need to let it be and just wait and see what happens.
On another note, I had flowers delivered to work today. You'll never imagine who from. My soon to be ex mother-in-law. Yes, her. All the crap she's done to me and the kids during this divorce and she sends me flowers and a card that says "Happy Birthday Daughter-in-law". Talk about weird. I don't know what my feelings are on that. I'm torn. Is she up to something or is she just trying to be nice because she knows she's about to lose seeing her grandkids? I just get a funny feeling.
My feelings have been so messed up lately. I wish I could just figure them out. I feel like I'm hurting the people I really care about and I'm not doing it intentionally.
The roller coaster's going down and I'm having a hard time getting it to climb back up.
