The kids don't seem to want to call me anymore. Not quite sure what's up with that. Z told me yesterday that he didn't want me picking him up at school anymore on Daddy's weeks unless I had Auntie K with me. He wouldn't give my an answer as to why, but fortunately, he's done with school on June 13th, so I won't have to worry about it. It's one of those times where things are a little too quiet, but I can't think of anything that could possibly happen that hasn't already.
Still kind of depressed, but I can't quite figure out what it is that's completely causing it. Right now it just seems to be a mix of all the little crap going on that I really don't need to be worrying over, but I guess that's just who I am. I've been doing my hardest not to spend my spare time in bed. That's really the only place I want to be. I just want to pull over the covers and forget about the rest of the world. I don't even want to go to work anymore, but everyone knows that that's something we all have to do just to survive, so there's really no way of getting around that.
I hope things perk up soon. I don't like being like this and it doesn't seem like there's anything I can do about it at the moment. I guess I just need to take things as they come and deal with them to the best of my ability.
There seems to be some controversy about my last post. To clarify, they is my 2 children. They are insistent on treating me like crap and doing everything in their power to piss me off. Why? Because Grandma told them to. Yes, you read that right. My ex's mother is "training" my kids to lie, be rude, and disrespectful to push whatever it is that she has planned. I have a feeling it has something to do with the GAL that's in place. Hey, if the kids piss her off enough, maybe she won't want them anymore and then my son won't have to give her any money and I can have these children to raise since I know my son wants no part in it.
I don't know what goes on in her twisted head, but she's starting to put that kind of crap into my kids heads. I didn't raise them to be rude, liars, impolite, and disrespectful little brats. And if you ask them why they are doing the things that they know are wrong, the answer is always "Because Grandma told us too and we have to listen to whatever she says because she's older and we don't have to listen to you or anyone else. Just her!!"
I don't know what she's doing or planning on doing, but I'm tired of the mental crap she's putting on them.
As far as God goes, I do believe in God, but I have a hard time putting my faith in him when I've had so many bad things happen to me that shouldn't have if he was really watching out for me and cared about me as much as everyone says he does. I can do my best to let God handle ever aspect of my life, but I don't believe that he can take care of everything. Somethings just have to be decided on by yourself and no one else. God can give you insight to help you make the decision, but you are the sole person to decide what happens in your life.
Lastly, I do not appreciate it that my blog is currently be used as a argument spot about religion. Every one has their own beliefs and their own reasons behind those beliefs. I do not like it when other people try to push their beliefs on others and would greatly appreciate it if it wasn't done on my blog. You have the right to believe what you believe and that is it.
Plus, if you're only going off of my last few posts and think that I'm just this crazed person that's being lazy, maybe you should take the time to read some of my archives and get a feel of everything that's been going on in my life before you start passing any type of judgment on me. You don't possibly know what's going on unless you've been here with me through out everything.
And you know what? YOU DON'T KNOW EVERYTHING!!!
