The big meeting was today. Talk about talking to a freakin' kid. He just didn't get common sense. It was all black and white and all he could say is "This is too confusing." It's plan and simple. From September 1st until June 1st, he would see them every other weekend (Friday from 2:30pm until Sunday at 8pm) and every Tuesday from 2:30pm until 8pm. Then from June 1st until September 1st, I would see them every other weekend (Friday from 2:30pm until Sunday at 8pm) and every Tuesday from 2:30pm until 8pm. I think that's pretty simple. The only reason I laid out the proposal for the summer that way was because he was too busy bitching that I had the kids too much and it wasn't fair. So pretty much I would have full placement of the kids for 9 months and he would have full placement for 3 months. I just want to have the kids full-time during the school year. I don't care what the hell happens during the summer. I have a small feeling that we've come to an agreement, but I'm pretty sure that once the GAL writes it up and mails it to us, he'll change his mind. Why? Because his mom gets the mail way before he even gets home, so she'll read it and probably have a huge freakin' fit. Especially since the child support was increased about $60. He didn't like that too much, but that's because he makes twice as much as I do. Now I just sit back and wait until the court date on the 28th and see what happens. I hope this is done. I'd like for there to be some sort of routine going on so my kids aren't so screwed up.
So after dealing with that crap for 2 hours, I come home and deal with my kids being brats. Z decided that he was going to walk 2 blocks to the park by himself and when he had enough, he walked back home by himself. The worst part is, he didn't even ask, let alone tell anyone he was going to the park. He just left. Of course, when I tried to talk to him about it, he just didn't understand the common sense to it either. I think it's some genetic gene that runs in his dad's side of the family because no one there seems to understand common sense. So, by 9pm, I had a killer fucking headache and was ready to just hog tie my kids to their beds. You know when you get those days where you're just done and they keep bugging the hell out of you over the stupidest stuff. I'm so glad they went to bed right away because I was way beyond being done.
I'm missing T like crazy. Haven't heard from him, so I hope he's having lots of fun and getting along well with everyone. When I was getting ready for bed last night, I noticed that he forgot to take a few things. He took his toothbrush and toothpaste and cologne, but forgot deodorant, shampoo, and body wash. Now why the hell would you take cologne with you on a fishing trip? Is he planning on picking up fish or something? If he was going to mask the fact that he wasn't going to be taking a shower for a few days, he should've just taken his deodorant, not my favorite cologne. Some times I'd like to know what the heck goes through a guys mind. I told my best friend what T did and she just laughed. Turns out her man also forgot to take shampoo and what not, so I hope one of those guys that went remembered to take something otherwise we're not going to be around them when they get home on Sunday unless they get into the shower first. So, if someone understand why the guys would do this, please inform me so that I can have a better understanding to the "thinking" that goes through a guys head at times like this.
So the guys have officially left about 3 hours ago. It's going to be weird not seeing him or being around him for 5 days. Especially since Friday and Saturday nights are the only real time we get together. I know I'll be fine, but I'm going to be really glad to see him on Sunday when he gets back. I just hope he has lots of fun and comes back some what more relaxed. The guys really needed it though. They've been working like crazy and working really long hours. They deserve to get out and have some fun. Just wish I could do that once in awhile. I feel like I'm constantly stuck here no matter what. Don't really have the time or the money to go away for 5 days just to relax and have fun. I'm sure it will happen eventually. I just wish I could get out with my bestfriend for a few days with no kids and no worries and just have a blast. I think her and I have earned it too. We've been doing a lot just to make sure the guys get done what they need to get done at the business. It would be nice to be told that we need to leave too since we've done a lot.
Anyways, GAL meeting tomorrow with the ex. Not really looking forward to it. He can never come to an agreement, so what's going to make tomorrow any different? I hope this is it. We reach an agreement and the divorce becomes final on June 28th. Boy, that would be nice. Well, you know what they say. You can wish in one hand and shit in the other. Which one do you think's going to fill up first?
I called the GAL today to find out why he didn't call me back last week. Supposedly he has been trying to get ahold of me for the past week. He wanted to schedule an appointment for B & I to meet to hopefully come to an agreement. I'm not going to get my hopes up thinking that this may finally be it, but it would really be nice to come to an agreement and be done with this divorce at the end of the month.
T is leaving for a fishing trip on Wednesday. He's going to be gone until Sunday. I'm going to really miss him, but I know he needs to get out and relax. He's been busting his ass at work and needs to get away for awhile. I just don't like the thought of him being gone for so long. I know I'll be ok since I've got my best friend and 4 kids to keep me occupied (her 2 and my 2), but damn am I going to miss him.
I started up on meds on Thursday. I'm really scared and nervous to be taking them since the last time I was on them, I was really "crazy". I was so out of control and making very irrational decisions. I just know I needed them because I feel out of control as far as my emotions go. I thinking starting these will help me to be able to deal with the kids and divorce better and once things are done, I can probably go off of them. I just hope that if anything changes in me, the important people I've asked to "watch" for me will tell me ASAP.
I'll be back to let people know what happens on Thursday unless something happens between now and then.
