Thursday, July 13, 2006

I don't like I feel lately. I feel like you're pulling away from me. You seem like you don't want to include me in what's going on in your life. You only care to tell me about work. You've been there for me through everything I've gone through, no matter how big or small it was. I just want to do the same for you, but I don't think you see that. How do I get you to realize that I just want to be there for you and show you how much I care about you? I'm not trying to be pushy when it comes to topics, but when I find out something big from and "outside" party, I feel like you don't want to include me. I feel like I'm not that important to you as you say I am. I feel like I'm just here to be here. I want to know what you're thinking and what you're feeling and what you may or may not be struggling with. You can't tell me that the only thing that's important to share with me is things pertaining to work. I know there's more going on, but why you don't want to talk about it with me is beyond me. Have I done something? Do I care too much? I just don't know. I just don't know.

posted by Me @ 8:31 PM Comments: 0

Monday, July 10, 2006

Things are pretty good. I'm adjusting a lot better than I thought I would. I enjoy having my kids around again. The ex and I are actually talking like human beings too. It's kinda strange. With this finally being done, we're getting along. By his own decision, he's making sure that he's the one "releasing" the kids so that I don't have to deal with his mother. It's kinda nice to know that he sort of cares enough to prevent me from dealing with his mom now that this is done. The kids are slowly adjusting too. My oldest told me that he wished school started soon so that he could be here. It was nice to hear him say that he wanted to be here for a change.

Other than that, there's not too much going on. Just concentrating on moving forward with my life and make sure that all the important things are taken care of. I'm going on vacation on the 21st, so I'm really looking forward to that. I really need it. With everything that's been going on, it's going to be nice to get away for a little bit and be able to come back relaxed and refocused on the important issues. I just hope this vacation is a tad bit better then the one that the boyfriend and I took last year. We're actually leaving the state, so I'm a little nervous. I've never left the state without my parents, so this will be a new "adventure" for me. I can't wait.

posted by Me @ 7:18 PM Comments: 0